Sleepless Night – Part 1

Ah another sleepless night. I know I am not insomniac. Then why it’s been like that for sometimes? Here is another question where I do not have any particular answer. So, what I am going to do now? Umm getting online again? Nah, I have worked for almost 7 hours continuously. Body is not going to act like a machine this time. Spending almost 18 hours of busy schedule, it would be quite unfair if I don’t provide rest for my body. Hmm, what else I can do without having any sort of physical activity. Umm, thinking about past? Or thinking about future? Or both? Let’s start first.

What is the destiny of my life? Umm I don’t know yet actually. Things have changed in a way that I have never thought it would be like that. Last 6 or 7 years, things have changed dramatically. It has been an adventurous movie where every day has special twist or turn! What I was thinking when studying in 12^th grade? I would study in a subject where I can find myself comfortable. Look where I am now. LOL. I am studying in a subject where I have never wished to study. Anyways, can’t regret too much as it is part of life. I used to love reading novels, and sometimes, I used to write poems. Seems like, I have lost my leisure activity. When I was in college, I used to think that, life can be simple if you make it simple. It’s not that easy when difficult aspects come out of nowhere. Panic situations are best to test your guts. It shows you how you are going to face the situation. When I have experienced my turns, I couldn’t control my vulnerability. I was completely broken into pieces, and it has been hurting me a lot.
Life without work, we can’t even imagine how it would be. Life is going way too fast, and things are changing like jet plane. We are watching but not being able to hold it back. Work, work and work; that’s the only thing I do except my study in dentistry. Things get difficult when I have to stable both side without having enough time on my hand. Those particular moments are just pain in the…. I can’t deny any of them as both are just way too much essential to get my life on track. If I want to build up my career, I will need both of them at a time. I don’t want make any mistake again in this particular matter. I have seen enough to be in awkward situations. But it seems so tiring. No break, no touring, no get together. It just study and work. What a life, isn’t it?
I am not fooling myself. I know what I am planning to. It needs quite a bit of patience. Patience is the virtue of success? Umm it’s the quote we all know. But how to implement your work is the main fact. When I was in school, I never thought I had to get mature so quickly. Well, I had to balance myself due to my family condition. Seems like, it helped me in a way, but it was painful in way. Who wants to be so responsible at that point of time? I guess no one would dream in their life to get into a situation where childhood life will get diminished.
Today, I saw a street beggar, age may 10 years old. Having one hand paralyzed, was asking me to do some help. I didn’t know how to react. I was in a taxi. I wanted to give something, but the taxi got started moving, so couldn’t do so. I was wondering how that boy would live his life. How to live up his daily expense? Umm, no idea. Life is tough if you don’t have a proper shelter. What is going to be the future of this boy? Umm he will continue begging or get into unauthorized work. That’s the thing is happening with thousands of street children in my country. No plans yet for them, but is it worthy let them live like that?......